秋のアニメ2015

PART I

This week was the end of of Summer and the end of summer anime as well. The summer line-ups were so fun I’ve already missed them. Let’s see… for summer I watched: Makura no Danshi, Gangsta, Junjou Romantica 3, Okusama ga Seitokaichou, Himouto Umaru-chan, Classroom Crisis, Aoharu x Kikanjuu, Durarara!!x2 Ten, Charlotte, Working!!!, Watchman Crowds insight, Wakako-zake, God Eater, and the continuation of spring leftover: Ace of Diamond 2 and Shokugeki no Soma.

I enjoyed them all but a lot of things happen along the way. For instance, Underwater fansub stopped subbing Gangsta after just 2 episodes. AboveSeaLevel fansub take over but so far they only released up to Episode 5 as we speak. I’m like, what?! At this rate I have no choice but to watch the Funimation version. The only Funi release I watched in summer was Junjou Romantica 3. I miss this series so much. But since nobody fansub it except Aarinfantasy, which takes forever to fansub and their video quality is not that good, I ended up with Funi. The similar thing happened to Durarara!!x2 Ten, in which Vivid cancelled fansubbing the series. I ended up with Crunchyroll release again. Let’s hope there’s someone out there kind enough to sub Part 3 this winter. As for working, I actually haven’t finished watching it because DameDesuYo is like a week late in releasing the show.

Okusama ga Seitokaichou was one of the best. The ecchi-romance story was so cute! I also liked Charlotte in which it ended beautifully I cried. As for God Eater, looks like it’s gonna continue through fall season. It’s simulcasted by Daisuki, which provides a very high quality video even just 720p. Such a feast for eyes. As for Shokugeki no Soma, I hope they make the second season because the story is really good. Last but not least, I decide to drop Ace of Diamond 2 because I don’t feel like watching it anymore. Too long and not quiet in the mood. In conclusion, summer anime line-ups were so fun!

PART II

Finally we come to the Fall anime line-ups. Honestly, my list this time is the shortest list ever. There’s actually nothing in this season, I repeat, nothing really excites me head-over-heels. Except… probably Noragami and One-Punch Man pique my curiosity just enough. But let’s see first. Here’s the fall line-ups.

  1. Haikyuu!! 2
  2. K: Returns of Kings
  3. Noragami: Aragoto
  4. One-Punch Man
  5. Owari no Seraph 2
  6. Rakudan Kishi no Eiyuutan
  7. Subete ga F ni Naru

Only seven. OMG seriously, I usually have more than 10 anime to watch for each cour. But even it’s just seven, they are those kind top quality anime (I hope).

PS. After waiting for the whole summer, the spring series Kekkai Sensen will finally air its final episode on October 3rd! This is one of the best anime/manga ever exist!

do we know ourselves, at all?

Recently I just finished reading Haruki Murakami’s “Sputnik Sweetheart”. There is this one paragraph in the beginning of Chapter 5 that caught my attention the most.

Given the chance, [people] are surprisingly frank when they talk about themselves. “I’m honest and open to a ridiculous degree,” they’ll say, or “I’m thin-skinned and not the type who gets along easily in the world,” or “I’m very good at sensing others’ true feelings.” But any number of times I’ve seen people who say they’re easily hurt or hurt other people for no apparent reason. Self-styled honest and open people, without realizing what they’re doing, blithely use some self-serving excuse to get what they want. And those who are “good at sensing others’ true feelings” are taken in by the most transparent flattery. It’s enough to make me ask the question: how well do we really know ourselves?

Most of people tend to do those kinds of things. They can be surprisingly confident about themselves when sometimes they do something entirely opposite of what they say about themselves. I’m starting to doubt myself whether I do these kinds of things unconsciously, too. Am I one of those people? Do I know myself, at all?

a series of bitter feelings

I have come to the point where I begin to hate myself. For couple of times I’ve made big fuck-ups, to myself, to God, and worse, to people around me. I keep making choices I regret later, only leaving me tearful without being able to change anything in the end. I repeatedly say bad things, only making people who actually care about me hurt, especially my family. I said I’m a believer but I keep forgetting to be thankful to Him, for all I have are truly His gifts. I’ve made a promise to myself that I’ll try to be better. But promises, even just to myself, are in fact just empty words. I’ve tried, but apparently haven’t tried hard enough. I’ve prayed, but apparently haven’t prayed sincere enough. I tend to keep making mistakes and fucking things up I’m starting to believe there’s something seriously wrong with me.

Well, yes, there actually is. Here’s the effing deal. I’ve been living in vain. I’ve been caught up too much in my problems I keep forgetting God exists. I’m not thankful enough of the life I’m living. I take things for granted. I am ignorant. I spend a lot and justify that action. I snap out a lot and make hurtful and sarcastic comments. I have offended people and hurt their feelings. I am good-for-nothing.

All that… is the proof that I have led such a mundane life. The most terrifying part of it all is that I actually do all things involuntarily, unintentionally, without being aware. And the aftermath always leaves a series of bitter feelings in my chests.